Julias 14th, 369
It is the fourth night of our climb up Mt. Ghuntam. Uncle says we should reach the peak tomorrow, or maybe the following day at the latest. The weather has been perfect for the climb and we have been taking our time. This trip is exactly what I have needed to get my mind off matters at home.
I expect my brother will be born by the time I return. I wonder what they
will name him. It still seems odd to me that my parents should have a child this
late in life. Frankly, I didnt know the old man still had enough life left in
I really need to get away. Everything about this province depresses me. There is nothing here. The people dont
seem to have any purpose they just live. My parents have become just like them. Curse them! Father could have been so
much more if only he had had the spine. He could have stood for his beliefs. He could have made it. Perhaps the time
wasnt right, but he didnt have to give up. Curse him! At least Mother retained a little bit of her dignity for a time, but this cursed country has drained her
even of that. I will not allow myself to succumb to their fate. I have seen what I can become.
I havent thought about that for years. So much that I saw and yet, I cant
help but wonder how much of it was true. There was definitely something more
something I missed. How many years has it been 15 maybe 17 since the Carnival. So many questions unanswered. I wonder
why I had not thought about it. So much I saw in those portraits. Perhaps it was nothing more than a youths fancy. Certainly
nothing that I saw has come true yet. But I must do something. I cant live this life anymore.
Fevrum ??, 369
I have learned more from my new tutor in the past six-seven months than I learned in that pathetic little village in
the past 30 years. The fates must have smiled upon me that day that I found Master
Karinna here in the mountains, or rather he found me. And yet, the Hall of Portraits
showed me this future. But the Hall showed me much, much of which I know to be
false. It is separating the false from the true that shall mean success or failure
for me. There was something more behind that Carnival the master was not truly
the Master I know that for certain now. That much I could tell even at that
But back to Master Karinna. If not for that random fall a slight accident
while climbing I would never have found him. He found me lying there in the darkness,
the last of my life-blood slipping from me. He used his power to mend my wounds. He took me deeper in the caverns to places where no light has ever toughed. He told me that his name was Altin Karinna and that he was destined to be my master. He told me that he had been waiting for me for many years.
I wonder what the others think. I have been missing for over six months. I wonder if I will ever return. By now
they surely think me dead. But I am far from dead. My new Master has opened me to a world of knowledge power I didnt even know I possessed. My strength and power has grown at such a rate I did not believe it possible. For years I have been struggling to hone my gift. Mother taught
me some, but she was always afraid to use the power. And father he is still too
broken. Perhaps if he had used his gift while still in the Voca he could have
been something. Perhaps the Republic would be a far different thing than it is
today. It reeks with corruption! I
stray yet again. Master Karinna is a harsh master, but an able one. He shows me aspects of myself I didnt even know existed and I have been able to delve deep into my psyche
to draw upon the power power unlike anything I have known. And yet, there is
a danger. I do not think that even Master Karinna is fully aware of the effects
this dark power has had upon him and at times I do not trust him. He is a trow
and ancient even for one of his kind, and though he appears young, the darkness has taken its toll. If I have learned one thing it is that darkness always takes never gives.
This knowledge above all else is the key to mastering the darkness. I
think Master Karinna once knew this, but is seems he has forgotten it. He has
let the darkness take too much.
I think that while Karinna has much to teach me, I will soon surpass him. There
are basic fundamentals to what he is teaching me that I feel he at times fails to grasp.
I will have to leave soon. But what of him...